15 minutes of Fame

Have you ever encountered a situation that put you in the spot light? The spot light experience was temporal but it was your 15 minutes of fame! How did you maximize your 15 minutes? Did you even know that's what it was at the time? did you miss the opportunity to excel or did you just let it ride? The reason I ask is I have encountered 15 minutes of fame. See I have had it before but I missed the opportunity to maximize the situation, I was in the midst of being processed so I repelled and rejected everything that existed in that moment. I was suspicious and rightfully so yet immature in my development so instead of riding the  wave of the 15 mins, I either became to eager and put my hands on it and it fizzled and caused great disappointment or I was scared of what might happen if I embraced it and shunned it away hoping that I wouldn't feel anything from the loss that might have followed.

WELL TODAY IS A NEW DAT DAWNING, I'm living in my 15 mins of fame  right now , could I be talking about graduation , nope not at all, then what? See I have been single for quite a few years and no one had approached me. I began to wonder did my breath smell ? I know I shower daily so whats my issue. I was being processed to be able to think clearly in my 15 minutes of fame. See I wasn't ready in the past for any one to come into my life, no matter how much I thought I was ready .  I was hidden in the clef of a rock with wings surrounding me like a caterpillar in a cocoon.I was still living but not fully developed into a butterfly. I wanted to come out of my cocoon sooner than needed, but had I done that all of my struggles and pressing forward wouldn't have been able to form me into who I am today. Where am I going with this? Well I'm finally out of my shell I am spreading my wings and soaring through my 15 mins. Now the question might be what put you in the spot light ?what do I call fame? At one point on this journey  I encountered 4 different men, NOW I have your attention huh?.  One I hadn't known long but something about his conversation intrigued me. He was quite aware that if you get into a woman's head she was open to just about anything. Like I told my oldest son who is dating" If you feel a woman's mind she will give you her behind." Well apparently this gentleman's mother told him the same thing. Then there was a friend from way back he was always cool and we "kicked it " back in the day he was always respectful never "tried it" and we eventually just walked away no hard feeling it just fizzled, but social media reacquainted us  and the conversation was funny but combative. Then I one day was in the grocery store just minding my own business and here comes this really really REALLY young guy trying to get at me. Now after my initial shock of " are you talking to me?" I was truly flattered that he thought he could play in Division 1 from the little leagues . Some one recently asked me how does it make me feel when men in their 20's approach me ? I told them I'm truly flattered, but I don't play in Division 3  games, I'm strictly Division 1 and if you want to play in the big leagues you have to be game ready. We don't share players in Division 1 you only get traded and we don't have room for rookies. Now my last but not least 15 min extraordinaire is someone I was crushing on in my youth and vice versa but we never said anything except until recently. Now why do I call this 15 minutes of fame? because it fizzes out and depending on what direction you take,  it can keep the spot light on you but  it might bring drama or it could die out and you go back to the private life you originally lived , while some may forget your name. How do I proceed? Well its something about a face to face encounter that can help you decide. Within a matter of days after face to face's,   decisions have been made people are dropping off like flies and there  was  one left . The one I cant see face to face and at times that is good, because all we can do is use our words and imaginations forming a place within that could only be filled with intimacy with justified fantasies which are now  illusions. BIG SIGH!!! Lets keep walking..........................bye 15 minutes.................................