There are those who reflect every year on the past what you did and didn't do?, making resolutions for the next year, to start out the gate running to only come 3 months along and realize you have stopped running or walking or is almost at a stand still, possibly in reverse. I'm not big on reflecting I prefer to flashback its quick then its over and it doesn't allow room to linger in the past. It's called the past for a reason. We aren't to forget it so that we can know were we are going, but lingering in it can be a mess. Quote from my grand mother E. L Roberts " When you stir in old mess it begins to stink."This time I'm going to try to improve upon somethings that will take longer than 3 months this apart of my journey. It will be a day by day second by second faith walk. I have to break some habits that I have formed over a life time. One is my speaking patterns. What do I mean by this? Well as I continue to groom my sons sometimes I speak their language and it doesn't take allot of effort to speak broken, incorrect English. Children will bring things out of you, things that you never knew existed. Now don't get me wrong I'm not blaming my sons for anything, but I face customers every day and when I get a customer on the line that is acting like one on my children it takes everything out of me not say " really dude are you serious" which isn't appropriate when speaking with a customer. Speaking professionally "should" be my main focus, but I slip sometimes. Maybe they have asked me the same thing over and over and I have replied with"I will complete the task," and they wont let it go. Then I want to say" I GOT CHU, I GOT CHU!!!!!" BUT I can't. I'm a work in progress but I'm loving the process.
Another thing I will work on is my health. OK, OK I know everyone is striving to work on their health because the new year is coming. Well to me its bigger than the new year its the new life. See fitness for women is crucial. One of the biggest killers in women is heart disease. Plus allot of women have to have hysterectomies and ovarian cancer, breast cancer etc. Some of these things are genetic ,but some of these things can be avoided. HOW? We as women carry things internally, the stresses of life. We have to take care of our children, our parents our grand children's, our community rides on our back because we feel obligated . Have you noticed that women are carries? and we carry things in our wombs(hysterectomy), We put our heart into it, what ever it is(heart disease) when we exercise we release the toxins that come with the stress and sweat it out , breath it out , walk it out ,because we can't always talk it out.
I just finished a semester of school that had me so stressed that it twisted my back into a knot and I couldn't walk for almost 2 weeks after it the semester was over!!!!!!! I said no more. I now take a spinning class 3-4 times a week and I have changed my diet. The weight loss will be a bonus but not my focus. Some times I peddle so hard that I feel like I'm going to "earl." I can feel my heart pounding against my chest cavity, and I remember when it felt like that after walking up 10 stairs. I can't tell you what to do but I can tell you that breathing heavy after a hefty work out is so much better than breathing heavy after lifting a cookie lol!!!
I want you to walk this journey out with me. Lets keep walking………..
